I Love this House.

We are all moved in. I love this house.

It's owned by a family with 3 young boys who have moved overseas to work for a couple of years. It's old but warm, and lived in and loved. There's a robot chalkboard sticker on the sliding lounge door, and a playhouse at the foot of one of 2 huge trees in the frontyard. The backyard slopes off into semi-native bush and scrub, and leads down to a stream which I can hear from the deck. And the birds-so many birds-I could listen to them all day!
The house sits in 2 different worlds actually, out the front it sits among 4 other houses on a shared driveway-the best of both worlds.Friendly neighbours and then complete privacy out the back.

So what have I even been doing the last week? I've been out for a few walks but still haven't ventured out in the car yet-I'm not sure why-I'm nervous about trying to navigate my way around in the car-I'm one of those people that always chooses the familiar and easy route to get around so I had my own ways of getting to places in my hometown. So really I've spent a lot of time perfecting my Desperate Housewife persona- there's been a lot of baking and cleaning and 'fluffing' happening

I have managed to finally get inspired and get my craft on in these last 2 days though.
 I have boxes and boxes of fabric and I decided I need to turn it into nice things-so have been pattern-making and sewing and actually enjoying it.
It can get tedious when you're doing it for other people, but in my own time and being able to do exactly what I want has been a breath of fresh air. I have big plans for a market stall once I have a bit of a collection going, I have no dressmaking clients over here yet so I'm anxious to be contributing to the household income somehow!

Pepelina has been moving around a lot more- I've been a little crampy the last 2 days, so that coupled with not feeling as many movements had me feeling a little nervous but I was pleased to wake up at 3am last night and feel her have a party inside me for a good 2 hours-she has some good rhythm happening in there!I swear she's choreographing her own dance routine.

I often wonder whether I would be having a different pregnancy experience if I hadn't experienced IF - I think I would perhaps be a little more relaxed, but at the same time I'm thankful that I can really appreciate everything that's happening to me.
All the symptoms and possible complaints that come with being pregnant have a sweeter meaning to me, the heartburn makes me think of our little girl starting to grow and squash all of my insides up. the 3am dance-a-thon just makes me smile and look forward to the next kick...I don't know that I would have had quite the same appreciation for it all if we hadn't gone through what we did, and I honestly don't think I would change any of it now.

It's also made me re-evaluate the 'plans' for the ideal family that you have in your head, the number of kids and the age gaps that you want.
All of those things you think about growing up, now seem rather trivial.
Even when we started our IVF cycle I was still thinking quite far ahead, hoping we would get lots of frosties in the hopes of being able to have 2-3 kids, fretting a little about how we would pay for a second cycle if we needed to for a sibling. All of those plans have just flown out the window-and I don't mind. Whatever happens happens.
We just feel extremely lucky to be having a baby-and if it's our only one, well then we'll treasure every moment of parenthood that we're lucky enough to experience.