When the husband's away ...the Ants will play...on the computer that is!
After 3 weeks holiday G has returned to uni...and I finally get a proper chance to catch up on everything-I have missed out on so much in blogger world!
We have had a busy few weeks in general. We have been away 2 weekends in a row- the first was a gathering for G's extended family...the second was a gathering of my extended family, and then there's been a mad catch up during the week to get work finished, and birthday parties, mid-winter Christmas festivals, catch ups with friends, Harry Potter movie nights,oh and did I mention work in between all of that?
It's nice to be busy though-and to feel normal again! The MS is pretty much gone although I have the odd retch-fest in the morning sometimes still. But nothing that a vegemite Vogels toast won't cure.
So I'm now 16 weeks and 2 days...time is suddenly flying by, I guess that's the bonus of keeping busy. And I now feel very...comfortable in my pregnancy.I don't have the anxiety and fear that I had a few weeks back, and it's a relief. I also have a real little preggy belly now! I can't stop checking out my side profile in the mirror to make sure it's still there, I love having a little belly and I have to confess I've turned into a belly rubber-yes one of those annoying pregnant women who constantly rubs their belly. But I've confined myself to do it only at home!
So things have shifted a little in the past couple of weeks, instead of anxiously waiting until the next scan/appointment/heartbeat listen, and being scared of moving for fear of doing something to Pepe.... I feel like I'm now living a normal life again, working, socialising, exercising.....and all with my precious little stowaway on board for the ride.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
It's time....
....for a new blog post.
I'm sorry for a very long absence-has it really been 4 1/2 weeks??
I'm also sorry for lack of comments and I know many of you have been going through such tough times lately.I have no excuses for ditching blogger for a while- I just needed time out while I sorted out my fears and worries with my newfound status, and I don't think my posts would have been particularly inspiring over the last few weeks.
Why have I taken such a long break? I don't really have an answer for that, I just felt I needed a break from writing down my own experiences. After I wrote the last post at 8 1/2 weeks, I had another few days of on/off bleeding, right before my birthday.And I had just about reached my sanity limit.
I know I'm very very lucky to be pregnant despite having all the bleeding- but every time it happened I had no idea whether that was going to be 'really it' that time, or what the hell was going on....there was always that thought that maybe this would be the time that the bleeding wouldn't stop-that it would keep going. So I had yet another scan (that makes 5 so far-could be a new record for first trimester scans?) and baby was absolutely fine as per the other scans.
I've had these little goals in my head since I found out I was pregnant. 'If I make it to 6 weeks then I can relax a little' 'If I make it to 9 weeks...if I make it to 12 weeks' Every time I made those milestones I still wasn't able to completely relax or stop stressing. We had our 12 week scan on the 20th, it was amazing. We could see our baby in there moving like a mad thing. Stretching it's little legs, heart beating away....we have a strong healthy little bubba in there...but I still worried. So I made another goal in my head-' If I make it to 13 weeks and the midwife can hear the heartbeat-THEN I can relax'.
We saw our midwife on Monday, she found the heartbeat straight away, reassured me that it was nice and strong, and helped alleviate my fears that sleeping on my stomach wouldn't harm the baby-and then she told me to stop worrying.
So I finally gave myself a mental slap on the cheek and told myself to snap the f*ck out of it- No more worrying, no more stressing, no more googling and asking ridiculous questions like 'will violent spewing harm my baby' (yes the morning sickness stepped up a few notches at 10 weeks). I've stopped all of that-and feeling back to my old self again. Except I have a little passenger on board now, and I'm suddenly getting super excited about the fact that we get to meet our baby in 6 months time.
I even have a not-so-subtle bump to show for it. I'm pretty certain it's not just baby though, I've always had a wee pot belly to start with anyway, and I have eaten more than my fair share of fries and spinach pies lately. But I've been sticking out my belly proudly, and I don't give two hoots if anyone thinks I just look like a chubster, I know it's a baby bump and that's all that matters.
Soooo, I'm back, 13 weeks and 1 day, feeling very positive again.... and also feeling sad for friends who have been through some extremely tough and unfair times lately-Chon, Ree and Tee and Athena, and feeling hopeful that things will look up very soon for you.
And also just wanted to say Huge Congratulations to Haidee on the birth of her wee boy on Monday, so thrilled for you and looking forward to seeing photos!
I'm sorry for a very long absence-has it really been 4 1/2 weeks??
I'm also sorry for lack of comments and I know many of you have been going through such tough times lately.I have no excuses for ditching blogger for a while- I just needed time out while I sorted out my fears and worries with my newfound status, and I don't think my posts would have been particularly inspiring over the last few weeks.
Why have I taken such a long break? I don't really have an answer for that, I just felt I needed a break from writing down my own experiences. After I wrote the last post at 8 1/2 weeks, I had another few days of on/off bleeding, right before my birthday.And I had just about reached my sanity limit.
I know I'm very very lucky to be pregnant despite having all the bleeding- but every time it happened I had no idea whether that was going to be 'really it' that time, or what the hell was going on....there was always that thought that maybe this would be the time that the bleeding wouldn't stop-that it would keep going. So I had yet another scan (that makes 5 so far-could be a new record for first trimester scans?) and baby was absolutely fine as per the other scans.
I've had these little goals in my head since I found out I was pregnant. 'If I make it to 6 weeks then I can relax a little' 'If I make it to 9 weeks...if I make it to 12 weeks' Every time I made those milestones I still wasn't able to completely relax or stop stressing. We had our 12 week scan on the 20th, it was amazing. We could see our baby in there moving like a mad thing. Stretching it's little legs, heart beating away....we have a strong healthy little bubba in there...but I still worried. So I made another goal in my head-' If I make it to 13 weeks and the midwife can hear the heartbeat-THEN I can relax'.
We saw our midwife on Monday, she found the heartbeat straight away, reassured me that it was nice and strong, and helped alleviate my fears that sleeping on my stomach wouldn't harm the baby-and then she told me to stop worrying.
So I finally gave myself a mental slap on the cheek and told myself to snap the f*ck out of it- No more worrying, no more stressing, no more googling and asking ridiculous questions like 'will violent spewing harm my baby' (yes the morning sickness stepped up a few notches at 10 weeks). I've stopped all of that-and feeling back to my old self again. Except I have a little passenger on board now, and I'm suddenly getting super excited about the fact that we get to meet our baby in 6 months time.
I even have a not-so-subtle bump to show for it. I'm pretty certain it's not just baby though, I've always had a wee pot belly to start with anyway, and I have eaten more than my fair share of fries and spinach pies lately. But I've been sticking out my belly proudly, and I don't give two hoots if anyone thinks I just look like a chubster, I know it's a baby bump and that's all that matters.
Soooo, I'm back, 13 weeks and 1 day, feeling very positive again.... and also feeling sad for friends who have been through some extremely tough and unfair times lately-Chon, Ree and Tee and Athena, and feeling hopeful that things will look up very soon for you.
And also just wanted to say Huge Congratulations to Haidee on the birth of her wee boy on Monday, so thrilled for you and looking forward to seeing photos!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
8 1/2 weeks-are we there yet?
Ways to while away the weeks in the first trimester:
Eat- basically you're hungry every 10 minutes, the constant hunting and gathering of food-(read- ferreting in the cupboard like a woman possessed and toasting bread constantly...)will help the days fly by, especially as your taste changes every few days.
Pee- for 2 reasons. Your Ute is pushing on your bladder and you need to go every 20 minutes ,but you actually go every 10 minutes so you can do an extra toilet paper check.
Worry- spend most of you waking hours worrying, and as you're spotting pretty much constantly this is easy to achieve. Also make extra time to worry about such things as: will my cat kneading on my lap harm my baby, will my worrying about my cat kneading on my lap also harm my baby? If you can, try and meet up with people who will compound your worrying by telling you that no food is safe to eat, and that if you own a cat you're bound to get toxoplasmosis, these frightening and slightly misinformed comments are all helpful to the cause.
Burp, Become a heavenly pregnant vision for your husband by burping constantly, after a few weeks don't even bother apologising, it's better for the baby to just burp it out.
Become Constipated- be sure to discuss the finer details with your husband, you know you've reached a new level in your relationship when he asks in a very concerned manner if you've 'gone' yet.
Test your marriage- a good way to do this is by insisting that you simply cannot make it through the supermarket shop without some KFC fries. Wait until your husband has reached the entrance of the drive-through and then shout "WAIT- I don't feel like KFC chips I want McDonalds fries" insert a sob here for extra ammunition. If your husband turns around and actually goes to McDonalds you have a keeper. True story....
Practice coughing - you're pretty sure that the cough you have isn't good for the baby with all of that movement, so you develop a new 'gentle' way of coughing - 'ahh-hack....ah-hack'. Eventually though your need to cough will build to a crescendo and you will start going 'AH-HACK' violently and cough and splutter for 10 minutes and then hope like hell you haven't coughed baby off it's perch.
Injure Yourself -as if you haven't worried enough, wait until you have had your 8 week scan and are feeling really good, then stuff your lower back so you can barely walk or sit, and have to resort to rolling and sliding to get yourself up off the bed-make sure you allow time to worry about whether the pain is harmful to baby, and also whether your physio knows what she's doing with a pregnant woman.
Internet Shop- on your good days, spend hours poring over baby gear on the internet, buy clothes in size 3-6 months as you're pretty sure baby will be a giant just like you were when it's born, and while you're back is still injured,be sure to bid on useful DVDs like 'Preggi Bellies' a fitness program. Tell yourself numerous times that you must re-inflate your swiss ball one of these days-never get around to doing it.
Pepe is 8 1/2 weeks today woohoo!
Pics from the 8 weeks scan-teeny little arm and leg buds-squee!
Eat- basically you're hungry every 10 minutes, the constant hunting and gathering of food-(read- ferreting in the cupboard like a woman possessed and toasting bread constantly...)will help the days fly by, especially as your taste changes every few days.
Pee- for 2 reasons. Your Ute is pushing on your bladder and you need to go every 20 minutes ,but you actually go every 10 minutes so you can do an extra toilet paper check.
Worry- spend most of you waking hours worrying, and as you're spotting pretty much constantly this is easy to achieve. Also make extra time to worry about such things as: will my cat kneading on my lap harm my baby, will my worrying about my cat kneading on my lap also harm my baby? If you can, try and meet up with people who will compound your worrying by telling you that no food is safe to eat, and that if you own a cat you're bound to get toxoplasmosis, these frightening and slightly misinformed comments are all helpful to the cause.
Burp, Become a heavenly pregnant vision for your husband by burping constantly, after a few weeks don't even bother apologising, it's better for the baby to just burp it out.
Become Constipated- be sure to discuss the finer details with your husband, you know you've reached a new level in your relationship when he asks in a very concerned manner if you've 'gone' yet.
Test your marriage- a good way to do this is by insisting that you simply cannot make it through the supermarket shop without some KFC fries. Wait until your husband has reached the entrance of the drive-through and then shout "WAIT- I don't feel like KFC chips I want McDonalds fries" insert a sob here for extra ammunition. If your husband turns around and actually goes to McDonalds you have a keeper. True story....
Practice coughing - you're pretty sure that the cough you have isn't good for the baby with all of that movement, so you develop a new 'gentle' way of coughing - 'ahh-hack....ah-hack'. Eventually though your need to cough will build to a crescendo and you will start going 'AH-HACK' violently and cough and splutter for 10 minutes and then hope like hell you haven't coughed baby off it's perch.
Injure Yourself -as if you haven't worried enough, wait until you have had your 8 week scan and are feeling really good, then stuff your lower back so you can barely walk or sit, and have to resort to rolling and sliding to get yourself up off the bed-make sure you allow time to worry about whether the pain is harmful to baby, and also whether your physio knows what she's doing with a pregnant woman.
Internet Shop- on your good days, spend hours poring over baby gear on the internet, buy clothes in size 3-6 months as you're pretty sure baby will be a giant just like you were when it's born, and while you're back is still injured,be sure to bid on useful DVDs like 'Preggi Bellies' a fitness program. Tell yourself numerous times that you must re-inflate your swiss ball one of these days-never get around to doing it.
Pepe is 8 1/2 weeks today woohoo!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Haidees virtual Baby Shower!
Happy virtual Baby Shower Day Haidee !
Huge thanks to Athena for organising today so that we can all celebrate with Haidee even thought we can't be there in person.
Haidee you've been an amazing friend through the ups and downs of the past couple of years and I'm so so excited you're on the countdown to meeting your baby boy, and happy that we can share today with you!You've waited so long for these special moments-the first kick, the finished nursery, the Baby Shower, and now soon you'll be meeting your precious boy and we are all so over the moon for you!
So here are your baby shower gifts-I have had to pile them onto my red wagon and trundle them along the street to your house....hehe
Firstly, a pair of soft Bobux puppy baby shoes just cos they're adorable and then bubs gets to look at his tiny puppy feet!
A Peepo book-I loved this book when I was little and I hope your baby does too Haids!
A Cariboo eco-friendly wooden playgym :)
And finally something for you and bubs-a Weleda pack full of all sorts of useful skincare and baby products!
I hope you have an amazing day honey and you and baby are spoil :)
I also hope you enjoyed the impromptu Haka that Tee and I have performed for you at your baby shower too, to honour the occasion!
Huge thanks to Athena for organising today so that we can all celebrate with Haidee even thought we can't be there in person.
Haidee you've been an amazing friend through the ups and downs of the past couple of years and I'm so so excited you're on the countdown to meeting your baby boy, and happy that we can share today with you!You've waited so long for these special moments-the first kick, the finished nursery, the Baby Shower, and now soon you'll be meeting your precious boy and we are all so over the moon for you!
So here are your baby shower gifts-I have had to pile them onto my red wagon and trundle them along the street to your house....hehe
Firstly, a pair of soft Bobux puppy baby shoes just cos they're adorable and then bubs gets to look at his tiny puppy feet! A Peepo book-I loved this book when I was little and I hope your baby does too Haids!
A Cariboo eco-friendly wooden playgym :)And finally something for you and bubs-a Weleda pack full of all sorts of useful skincare and baby products!I hope you have an amazing day honey and you and baby are spoil :)
I also hope you enjoyed the impromptu Haka that Tee and I have performed for you at your baby shower too, to honour the occasion!
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