Cancelled cycle= *string of expletives*

Remember a few posts ago I complained this is like the never-ending IVF cycle?Well I'm no closer to finishing it. I had a blood test this morning to check my hormone levels, and got a phone call this afternoon to say my progesterone levels are too high and our FET has been cancelled.
FUCK.
I was with people when they phoned so held it together and pretended it was a client calling, then phoned the clinic back later to ask why this has happened-as I didn't understand.

The nurse said that I was too far past the right time to put an embryo in-basically we missed the boat. She said maybe my body was going to have a shorter cycle and that's why- I feel pissed off though as my last 2 cycles have been 25 days-shorter than my usual 28 days. Surely this should have been taken into account? The blood test today was day 16-apparently that's the earliest they usually do the blood test to check hormone levels but she said next cycle they may do it a day earlier.
Well yes that would be very helpful thank you. In fact-I would have happily done a blood test every day for the past week if it meant they could have picked this up earlier and not cancelled our cycle.

I thought that with a medicated cycle they had a little more control over things, clearly I was wrong.
I was more worried about our embryos thawing than the possibility of having to cancel-didn't even cross my mind at all.

So I'm well fucking pissed off, I was in such a good head space, I was so ready for Friday, I had only just today got myself all nicely brazilian-ed, and I was ready to tackle my 2ww head on and win.

I know it probably doesn't seem like such a big deal to some people, all I have to do is wait another month right? I just feel like we have been mucked around so much-first with not being able to complete our IVF, then waiting 2 cycles, and now this. I'm well and I'm healthy at the moment, we have the embryos there and ready, I just want to put one in and as I have said before-test drive my ute. Why is that turning out to be such a bloody mission?
I know I know-nothing is easy on this journey, we are constantly tested and nothing is straightforward. It sucks.I'm starting to feel like I have jinxed us by taking the December time slot when it was offered to me rather than waiting for when we were originally scheduled to start IVF in October this year(for those outside of NZ we qualified for a government funded cycle but unfortunately it means long waiting lists) At this rate it probably will be October by the time I get to do anything.

I also just wanted to mention how sorry I am for a good friend who just got a BFN on her 2nd IVF cycle, thinking of you darling girl- and 2011 had better get it's act together or Megachon and EggySue and RedPowerRanger with our powers combined are going to kick some serious ass!