Embryos love Easter Eggs.

Well my first experience of the 2ww has been....interesting.And I still have one week to go!
I had imagined it would start off all fairies and butterflies and then progressively get worse until I am awake at 3am a wide eyed crazy-haired key tapping fiend on google, but it has been the opposite so far.

The first 2 days were the worst, with crying, heart palpitating, breathless obsessing and yes googling already. You might wonder what one has to google about in the first 2 days when there aren't likely to be any sort of symptoms to obsess about....well so far I have managed to freak myself out about eating too much pineapple(I may or may not have gone a teeny bit OTT on the first day...),and find out that the tofu stirfry I had for dinner was a terrible choice, I have looked at the stats on 8 cell embies compared to blasts and may or may not have cried, and looked up some stuff on stress affecting the outcome....which I carefully doctored to only include good results by searching 'stress has no impact on IVF outcome'. So yesterday I put a self imposed ban on google-to be broken only when searching for online shopping related things.

But alas today I have been back and also googled 'no sore breasts in medicated FET'. I don't know why this has been freaking me out, I think because I have read about a few of the other people doing FETs talking about their sore boobs from the pessaries and seeing as mine are rather small and very un-hard(I guess I could just say soft)and very not-sore(happy boobs?) I have been stressing that this isn't a good sign.
So after Dr Google was most unhelpful at reassuring me and telling me EXACTLY what I wanted to hear, I consulted Dr Haidee instead this morning and have been reassured that you don't HAVE to have sore boobs to be successful, and as she is living proof of this I'm satisfied. (Thanks hon!)

But otherwise I have been coping okay, and I've tried to schedule something to do every day to keep me occupied, tonight is pub quiz with Lou who is nearing the end of her own 2ww so hopefully it will keep both of our minds of it. Tomorrow a trip to Hamilton for mum's bone scan except my whole family is going and we're having lunch beforehand- it's like a strange sick family 'fun day'-we're a bit weird like that-at least it will take mums mind off it.
Thursday I have acupuncture and I'm attempting to make my first ever Hot cross Buns, Saturday movies with G...you get the picture.

G and I have been talking to our embryo a lot lately and willing it to stick around.I know this seems a little dangerous to get so attached, but we've talked about the fact it may not work, and who knows?This little one could be out baby next year so why not talk to it now?
In fact our embryo has been very demanding lately, embryo has wanted breakfast in bed and got it, embryo has also made G sit through Coronation Street, and have the biggest glass of smoothie.  And I've also informed him that our embryo would like Easter eggs this Sunday...and what embryo wants...embryo gets.... :)