Embryo a go-go

Well I'm officially playing 'mummy' to one of our lovely little embryos and I'm so happy to have finally reached this stage!

We had one of our 8 cell embryos thawed yesterday, the embryologist phoned to say it had thawed nicely intact but that they would need to see if it grew overnight or they wouldn't be able to use it. So after a rather sleepless night we headed off to the city that the clinic is in and while I was having an acupuncture session beforehand, the clinic phoned G and told him our embryo was now 16 cells and ready to go-RELIEF!
The actual transfer went smoothly and I couldn't keep the smile off my face seeing that little white speck on the screen, it's all a little surreal now that it's actually in there. Hopefully doing it's thing and growing some more and getting ready to implant in the next few days.

I feel really positive...but I'm just still sooo jittery and nervous and almost breathless-and then I feel stressed that I'm not 'relaxed' enough and maybe ruining everything, it's a vicious cycle of feelings and nerves!

I think the week that I have had hasn't helped things though. I had a big order of sewing to do last week and was hoping to get it all done by last weekend so that I could have this week free, but there was delays in getting some fabric to me and I ended up having some late nights this week trying to finish it all, I was quite pissed off, and stressed, and a few tears and just so annoyed that my beautifully planned pre-transfer week was ruined. It's almost comical how ridiculously busy I was when I look back on it, considering I work from home and can usually control the flow of work I do this was very badly timed and out of my control.
But anyway I finished everything yesterday, and I'm feeling good now!

I had another acupuncture session after the transfer, and then G and I went and had a nice lunch and headed home. G has been so sweet, holding and stroking my hand lots and 'talking' to our embryo. I'll just be honest-we're been pathetically gooey over the whole thing but I don't care, we've had such a build up to this time, and I feel almost proud of our embryo for being frozen and coming back to life in such a good state!

A weird thing happened when we got home too, I lay on the bed for a while with my feet propped up, and G carried our cat Molly in to say hi to me, he put her down on the bed and she immediately climbed on to my stomach, sniffed around where I would imagine my uterus to be, and then lay down with her head in that spot purring madly...it really was strange as she usually finds her own little spot on the bed and doesn't come and lie on my lap like that. So I'm taking that to be a good sign, she was either introducing herself to the embie, or showing it who's boss and staking her claim on my stomach!