Finally...'next year' is here!

Hurray we have made it to 'next year' finally!
I've been thinking about 'next year' for quite a while, willing it to hurry up and now it's here.
Had a great New Year's eve last night, went to my friends midwife appointment with her which was really cool actually, got to hear her baby's heartbeat and her midwife is SO lovely, I hope I get to use her someday too.
Then went to a bbq, lots of kids there, and I think we were the only childless couple except for some other friends that stopped by earlier on, but it was an awesome night and we were the last ones left standing with our friends who had the bbq(I guess because we didn't have children to get home!)

There were a few comments thrown our way  from some new couples that we met, about 'did we have kids' and how lucky we were to be able to sleep in etc etc, for the most part I didn't mind but I think all of the comments got to big G a little at one point and he leaned over and whispered to me "we WILL have a baby someday, I promise".
I do realise that some people never have and never will experience infertility and will never know what it's like to want to be a part of the parent club so badly but have no control over gaining membership to that club, so I know now not to take things personally, I can't fault people for not realising these things and I'm pretty sure I may well have said or done the same thing if we had fallen pregnant when we had first started trying.

I just hope that when we do have a baby we don't forget what it's like, and I know there are certain things I will never say to the childless couple in the group, especially without knowing them very well and what their reasons might be for not having children..
I will especially never tell them how 'lucky' they are to be able to sleep in, an extra few hours sleep in the mornings is definitely not a worthwhile trade off to being unable to fall pregnant. As well as the fact that infertility causes many a sleepless night anyway.

But we did have some good laughs too and met some great people, and very entertaining to watch all of the children playing together!

I've listened to my new relaxation/self hypnosis thingy for the last 2 days and I'm going to try and listen to it daily, I've been managing to actually completely relax for the half hour track, which I usually find quite hard to do, so I figure even if the subliminal message doesn't get through, half an hour of total relaxation a day has got to be good for me.

So my sister asked me today if I have any New Years resolutions and to be honest I can't think of anything in particular. I guess my last post kind of sums it up in a way, I just want to try and be more positive, I hope I haven't gone against that with what I've said in this post, but I feel like I did remain positive last night whereas a few weeks ago it all might have gotten too much for me so I feel good about that.

We have our review appointment with our specialist this Thursday so hopefully he will give us an idea of when we can do our FET!I can't wait!