My glass is half full....of bubbles :)

I can't say the last week with Christmas and all has been absolutely perfect.
For the most part it's been great-but I've had my moments, I've felt angry, pissed off, been jealous and definitely overly sensitive at times. And I was going to do another 'annoyed' post at all of the injustices of infertility and have good old moan about a few of the more difficult moments of the past week.

But today I've been feeling good, really good, and I feel like a page has been turned.
I'm not sure exactly why and I sure hope it lasts, but I have read a few posts and thoughts from other bloggers lately that have sure made me think and re-evaluate, I'm sure they'll realise where I have taken inspiration from in their posts and I'm thankful to them for that.

A few people have spoken about how much negative emotions or negativity from other people can affect you greatly and that has definitely got me thinking about how some of my thoughts lately are surely detrimental to the cause-what embryo is going to want to burrow into a uterus that doesn't even feel 100% that it's going to survive?I've been feeling so worried that it's not going to even survive the thaw so really I'm not even giving them a chance from the outset.
I've always thought I will be positive once one of our embryos is put back in, but I think I need to start my positive thinking now so that this potential little baby of ours knows I'm rooting for it from the start (please ignore that terrible pun!)

To put it quite simply, I think I need to just get over myself for a bit. Stop obsessing day in and day out about infertility and the things I don't have....yet. Because big G and I will have children one day, hopefully next year but realistically we just don't know when, and it's time to stop putting everything on hold and start living again,and enjoying life,even if it's not quite the life I have imagined.

A couple of friends have mentioned relaxation and self-hypnosis downloads recently too which I thought was a great idea so I've gone ahead and ordered&downloaded a recommended one to my Mp3 player to start listening to tonight. Even though I'm feeling good at the moment I just want to keep myself on the right track for our FET.

And I'm also going along with my best friend to her midwives appointment tomorrow, normally this might have me feeling anxious, but when I got the txt from her today asking if I would accompany her, my immediate reaction was delight,and to be honest I feel priveleged to have been asked! My friend has been such an amazing support for me on my journey and I'd really like to give the same support back on her pregnancy journey. So I guess that topped off my realisation today that things feel different all of a sudden...and it's all for the best.

So I shall be toasting my new 'glass half full' philosophy tomorrow night with a glass half full...of bubbles,(okay lets be honest-it will be full and it wont be the first one) and toasting to a New Year full of excitement, joy, and the promise of good things to come.

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year!