I think I'm going to learn to crochet and start making one of my frosties a blanket.I think I need to do something to force my mind into thinking that yes, one of those little balls of cells is going to be an actual baby.
There's always a fear of being TOO positive, for fear of the fall from a great height if it doesn't work out. But I feel that if I don't start getting into a good frame of mind and thinking of them as real possible babies, then maybe those uncertain vibes will somehow transfer to those frosties and they wont want to stick around.
And if it doesn't work out well it's going to be devastating no matter how positive I am that it will work, and I know that one day I will use the blanket-whether it's for these 2 little icepoppets, or future icepoppets.
So a crochet blankie it is, I should add that I haven't the foggiest idea how to crochet,but I am pretty crafty in general and I've had this damn blanket idea floating around my head since we first started ttc and now that I've got a bit more time up my sleeve I think I need a mission.
I have lovely visions of me serenely crocheting in my chair, with faraway eyes and dreaming of my baby to be. But I think that realistically it will be a tangle of knots and swearing and general crotchety crochet frustration.I can't wait...:)
You have waaaaaay more patience than me! I'd end up stabbing myself in the eye! And if bubba came along, my blankie would be so shit I'd use it as a spew rag! Good luck luv...xoxo
ReplyDeleteSo glad I have your blog so I don't have to stalk you on BC to see how you are going!!
Awesome idea hon! We went to the baby shop and brought a little outfit every IVF cycle :-)
ReplyDeleteI would love to learn to crochet but fortunately I don't need to as my nana has already knitted me - a crochet blanket for baby, a crochet blanket for me, about half a dozen pairs of booties and is now making me some cardies since bub will be born in the middle of winter.
Probably for the best . . .
maybe we can all put our orders in now? ants pants super duper crochet blankets - strictly for infertiles only :)
ReplyDeleteHow sad, look at all of us together!!
ReplyDeletehaha CW yeah there might be a market there! But I shall call them The Angry Infertile Club crochet blankets, full of angry red squares and knotted tangled areas where I have crocheted in fury, as well as some soggy patches from the crying days of course!hehehe can you tell I am having one of those days already?where is my crochet hook, lemme at it!
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