I need to snap out of it.

So today would have been blood test day if I had had an embryo transferred, and I just feel like it would have worked if we had been able to do the fresh transfer. Maybe that's just first-timers naivety I don't know, but I feel like we would have been in for a good chance.

Now that it hasn't gone as I would have liked it to,(In a perfect world of course...) I still can't seem to pull myself out of the negativity well. I feel pretty good for a day or 2 and then I sink back into this woe is me frame of mind. I've never felt this crappy around Christmas time before, it's just not me, I need to get my happy back.

I really don't feel that I have all that much to feel woeful about though, I mean, we didn't get a BFN, we have 2 supposedly nice lookies frosties waiting for us, so why am I still feeling crappy? And I can't even blame it on the drugs anymore!

I think there are a few things I need to do to snap out of it,and I'm going to write them down right now so I actually DO them!

1.Tidy my house.I'll be honest, it's a major 'sty at the moment,and I always feel better when it's tidy.

2.Finish my sewing work, I have 2 dressmaking jobs that I have put off for so long, I just need to knuckle down and do them dammit.

3.Do some exercise...I really really need to, I feel so frumpy and yuk at the moment which isn't helping the cause, also just need to start getting back into it before FET as I think it will help.

4.Retail therapy, I do actually really need some summer clothes, and new clothes always make you feel better right?

I think that's all for now,and I guess to make a start I need to get off the computer, so I'm going to, and by the time I return my house will be tidy and my sewing work done. And then my next post might be a little happier.And to make this post more interesting, cos it's really boring, I'm going to add a cute photo...